Waiting Outside The Lines

I can't think of any appropriate title. Sorry. But I think this will do.
Anyway.
Nobody cares. Literally, as in literally. To tell you the truth, I hate to be alone.
Where I go into a state where I overthink so many thoughts that shouldn't show up. I can't help it.
I've always been alone.  That's what I always feel. Even if I'm with my friends or in our house. I do feel alone.
I'm getting used to it you know. Just like Gotye's song called Somebody That I Used To Know, there is this phrase that says, "you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness". I consider being alone a type of sadness.
Well, I get sad when I feel alone. The fact that no one actually cares. I think there is some who cares, but I feel numb to it.
Maybe I'm numb?
I don't know. I'm lost too. And I still can't help myself. It sucks you know. It really sucks.

I will try to get used to this kind of sadness, being alone.
Maybe get addicted to it someday.